so yesterday, i learned how insensitive i am. the funny thing is how God works. I was talking with my mentor and we talked about how i could be insensitive, and i understood it in my head but didn’t in my heart. so i prayed that He would teach it to my heart. on that night, God answered my prayers. I was basically told that I was being insensitive, indirectly, by couple people. mmm it hurt especially the last one. I understood it by heart. thank you so much Lord.

ya, God is sooo good to me. 

Whatever happened to those days when we got excited for that bowl of cereal, and when a hot chocolate was such a heart warming treat. I can still see me coming back from playing outside and drinking my favorite juice and feeling like a million bucks.haha

Now a days people traded that juice for a booze. That bowl of cereal probably won’t get people half as excited as dropping an E.  You know, whatever happened to those days.

But hey, I guess God’s kinds like that too though. When cereal couldn’t satisfy me, I turned to those after school hot pockets, then to school work, to playing popularity games in school, to flirting with girls, to umm.. ya finally getting dumped by a girl haha.That’s when I turned to God, maybe I can find excitement, satisfaction, significance in Him.

well temporary things didn’t really satisfy me huh? cuz i did try that alcohol, that cigarette to fill-up that emptiness in my heart. With God though, kinda differently, when I pray I sometimes feel an ecstasy of joy, a taste of heaven, but I don’t feel empty inside after I’m done. haha I miss you God.